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OMGS, prom, LAST YEAR was my last post? I now feel stupid and niglecting of LJ. I also can't spell for a college student....

speaking of which, I am now at college all moved in and parents gone. I've been alternating between periods of crying and excitedness for the past two or three days. Saying goodbye to friends was the worst. Nica especially.

Today's been....all nerves. Moving in was fine, but I think I'm more scared of the big city of Des Moines more than of acutal college.

My roommates are pretty cool people, and I think us three can get along. When my parents left I did cry, but things were pretty ok after that.

I feel like I packed too light but yet not at the same time. Being on the internet and texting is at least giving me a sense of normalcy.

My art all around me helps. My characters, and Obi-Wan especially ;) will help me through. Speaking of which, he stares at me from my ceiling while I sleep. I don't mind. :)

Honestly nothing's even happened yet. The RA meeting isn't until 7, so I've got some time to kill. Must be productive.....

I didn't make it into SmokeyFizz's vidding competition. And I lied, I'm a little more than slightly crushed. Here's the reason I didn't make it, and I quote:

While we thought you were excellent with timing. We thought that the colors you used, the textures, and the flashes were a little blinding. One of the judges actually had to turn it off because their eyes hurt. We loved though the little outlines around the characters. The opening dialogue was also a little rough and some scenes stayed on for too long.

Thing is, SmokeyFizz is kinda a flashy vidder in my opinion, meaning they use lots of flashes and colors and stuff too...ohh well it's not my decision, but 85 people made it. And, no offense, but for the stupidest vids I've ever seen. Now I know lots deserved to make it, I'm not saying I'm the best, but really...could've beaten some of them.

Well, at least I don't have to worry about what group I'm in for song artists.*sigh*

I can't even work on my comic, as i feel it's pointless and no one cares about it. The only people who read it are my friends. Hell, the only ones reading this are my friends too.

Yes, I'm in a woe is me mood. Sorry. I'll get over it eventually.

Maybe.

I hope.

I saw Sophitia posted her P.O.V. of Monday... I supposed I better too!!

Jenny came over and then we called out to their house, said we had some stuff to take care of first. There was nothing, we just wanted to see if we could surprise them. So we rocked out as we drove there...I've got an awesome stereo in my car...

We got there and the dogs started barking so I figured we wouldn't get to sneak up on them...we got in and no one was there to greet us...so we figured we hadn't been heard yet. We 'ninjaed' it up the stairs and Jade jumped into Soph and Copper's room. While Soph was changing.*rolls eyes* I followed in quietly and apologized promising that she hadn't received any sugar from me and I was not to blame.

Things went well, we talked about 20 different anime, I swear! Least I'm being educated in this stuff. I came home with more manga than I returned, again. They're all like my personal libraries!!

Yes, I was depantsed. I KNEW I should've worn pants but I wore shorts. Oh well, I had in my striped pair. I like them. Yeah, so not talking about this.

Read or Dream is awesome!! Oh, and guys, remember when you asked my about Illusion's personality in my comic? Well she's like a Maggie! Only she doesn't like dark spaces and I doubt that she nests.

Mario cart was awesome, even though I only won one game by myself. The other three felt so sorry for me after not winning like 25 rounds that they just let me win one on purpose, lol. I personally didn't care, cause I was having fun beating up on them!lol

We all drew on eachother too. Cause we're strange. Oh, we also had a pillow fight. I don't ever remember having a real pillow fight until then. I'm pretty sad, huh?

Oh, and we've decided that we're gonna make these visits about every 2 weeks cause it's just so darn fun!!

Also guys, on the 21st through the 23rd I'm working on the Godfather's Pizza truck at the O'Brien county fair. And I work 44 hours(roughly) over those three days. The rest of the week I'll probably be dead. But anything after thursday that week could probably work for me, if we all can find a day that works for all of us again!! Just say the day and I'll write it off.

What else...I haven't been reading the manga much. In fact I've barely been home. I'm either at work, asleep, or at nica's. I sleep there more than at my own home lately.

Oh, I colored that pirate girl, Soph! It'll eventually be up on DA. Eventually. When I get around to scanning stuff. Anyway, gotta go, so much to get done, and deadlines to meet!!

P.S. the results of the auditions round come out tomorrow for So You Think You Can Vid? !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hope I make it into the top 60 so I can move on to the tournament!! And if I get in a sucky group I'm probably out. The only group I don't want to be in is One Republic...cross your fingers guys, there's 217 auditions, only 60 move on!!!! Please let me be one of them!!

If there are one or more people on your friends list who make your world a better place just because they exist, and who you would not have met (in real life or not) without the Internet, then post this same sentence in your journal.


Stole it from Lynda's journal, lol

Whooop! That's what we were saying last night at the soccer game in Kansas City!! Oh, details..right..

The night before Anakin stayed over so we wouldn't have to go get her from her home. We stayed up till at least 4 just RPing and neither of us got good sleep, as we kept waking up and falling asleep. Got up at....a little before 8 and got in the car and drove. Yes, that equals out to about 2 hours of sleep, taking out all the time that we were awake in between sleeping.

So the six hour car ride down was pretty good, me and anakin RPed on paper the whole way there(parents were in the car, THAT would've been weird..)

I drew the Lord Alpha of the Renegades in the car(yes, I've discovered a slight talent of mine, I can draw in cars and it actually comes out to look great! After lots of touching up...) Yeah, he's in charge of all Renegades, all Districts, everything. Pretty B.A. guy. Anyway, he's gotta be inked and everything so you'll see him in a few days.

I also FINALLY got Anakin drawn as a character!! She's pretty cool! Well, of course, it's Anakin!! *smirk* I even invented a new Renegades class for her! Well, not for her, I've had it in my head a while... Yeah, that'll be explained on Anakin's character page...AND GUESS WHAT!? I added Epic in a picture again for once! She's been gone for a while..she's on Anakin's character sheet filling up space, lol. Fricken jerk went to Key West without me! (lol, I don't know how she got there either)

Did some concept art for Flare's power also...ANYWAYS....

So we got there waaay early, and got in our hotel, then decided to go to the museum of mental disabilities.(Anakin joked that it might cure me, and if it didn't we could simply leave me there...) That was really interesting. Fricken creepy what people who weren't quite sane had to go through. If I had to go through what they did I WOULD go insane....

Anakin kinda overdid it there, she shouldn't be walking that much...but she sat down for a while and was fine then. We ate at the Ground Round (amazing place) and then headed off to KC, as we were staying in St Joseph, about 30 mins away from the city.(which is nice, don't have to worry about bein shot up on the block) I was appointed navigator, which means I had to direct my father around town to get there, which wasn't cool but I'm kinda good at it so it was ok.

Anyway, we got to the stadium and we got in and were walking to our seats when these two guys in yellow shirts(that means they work there) came up to us, and one asked us if we'd like a flier in an awesome...something accent..he didn't speak enough for me to be able to tell. Then the second guy kinda stepped in so I could see him(DAMN hot!)and told us that the flier was for junior soccer league camps with the KC Wizards(team we went to see) in this AMAZING British accent. About ten thousand squee bombs went off in my head and I was smiling like a complete dork, but I looked over at Anakin quick and so was she, so I felt better. My parents just kinda stood there...and so he turned to us and said 'You two look like football players' again, in amazing Britishness. I was about to reply(probably something dumb whould've flew out of my mouth like 'Can I hug you cause you're British?') when my mother snapped out of it, said no, and we walked on. Anakin and I then proceeded to squee out loud at how awesome that just was and we weren't even to our seats yet! Jenny's right. I'm gonna marry a Brit just for the accent. I'm so pathetic.

So we sat down for a bit(luckily not many steps for Anakin) then got up to go get some sort of thing to take home. Anakin and I got a KC Wizards shirt, they were 20 buck each which is amazing considering it was official MLS stuff and everything. Not like player jerseys or anything but still, that is the bluest blue shirt I've ever owned, and it's nice and thick, not flimsy and crappy, so that was a good deal.

Came back, was facinated by the keeper warming up(he was a hottie too, not that we could see from that far away, but sometimes guys just radiate hotness, and he was doing so. Well to me at least...

Dude, the wizards mascot is a perv, lol. Before he threw things up into the crowd he's rub in all over his mascoty dragon butt. He was kinda cool though. I got pics, maybe I'll post them later.

Then the game started and anakin and I smiled like idiots, enjoying ourselves so much. The Wizards were great, and had possession almost all the time, but could get so close and then just somehow lose it at the oportune moment. It was really depressing, and extremely adreniline filled, when all you're doing is sitting in a chair watching.

THE CAULDRON: Wow. That's where like the hardcore fans sit..they have bass drums and chant throught he whole game...it's like being at a European game only..in one section. The drummer controlled the crowd. They had certain beats for attack, defense, kicks, everything. It was awesome. Sometimes they'd all suddenly get extremely quiet, and everyone was silent. The Wizard with the ball would take the shot and miss. Then slowly...veeeeery slowly the beat would return. It sounded like Indians on the attack. It was amazing. They made the game even more spectacular.

Lets have a disscussion about the people around us. Direct in front: Three guys. They look like your sports kinda guys, middle aged, but on the younger side of the hill. Anakin and I determined they were gay. Well...we suspected. They were ok and totally knew what they were talking about. In front of us to the right. Two complete preppy girls there with their dad. CLEARLY didn't wanna be there as they got up and came back about 7 friggen times!! People sitting next to Anakin: for Real Salt Lake(opposing team). Who comes from Salt Lake City to watch a game in Kansas City?! MADNESS. Didn't say much it was nice(their team was REALLY sucking it up and the only one performing was the keeper who was constantly at work)

ENTER DEMON CHILD TO THE BACK LEFT OF US. We'd get the ball and the kid would shout 'counterattack, counterattack!'. You can't COUNTERATTACK when we have the ball, which made me think he was for RSL. Then he said, 'Go Wizards!'. *blink* He'd yell 'get a corner' when they were on the wrong side of the field to get one(not explaining corners and stuff, I don't have that kind of patience)ugh, anakin whispered she'd kill him, to which I replied that I was not bailing her out of a KC jail and she decided against it. ;)We had others around us but they were ok.

Halftime was creepy. Radio Disney people came out and danced, and they sucked something awful. All were girls except for one guy and he was the best of the whole show. They they threw T-shirts. Anakin and I just looked at eachother sighed, and decided it wasn't worth standing for. I glanced over at my mom two seats away(Dad was in the bathroom, hence empty chair) and all the sudden a T-shirt came and smacked her in the face! I burst out laughing, as some random kid came and picked it up off the ground, and my mom looked extremely embarrassed. She's...IDK she doesn't work well in situations not familiar to her and her defense is annoyance/anger, so I quick shut up and continued laughing in my head.

Second half was just as good as the first. In the 89th minute(there are 90 minutes) the drums ceased to beat and a player lined up for a slight penalty kick. Others were around..IDK how to explain it if I can't show you...anyways, in sails the ball. The goalie never even moved a muscle to go after it. All at once every single person in the stands jumped up, cheering as one. As I jumped I looked over to the Cauldron and someone shot off a huge canon full of confette that sprayed all across the field to midfield. Anakin and I hugged eachother still screaming at the awesomeness. I pulled out of the hug to see one of the three alleged gays stand up, turn to the other, and do the pelvic thrust to him. All doubt of gayness was released as they hugged.

The game ended and we all stood up and applaueded screaming and jumping again. Anakin and I linked arms once we got out of the stands and were walking out of the stadium and skipped for a bit. Enter awesome hot British guy from before. He saw us rejoiceing, and apparently recognized us and laughed, after that I lost him in the crowd. Not like I would've talked to him, he was much too old for me. But still. Awesome. And I can dream.

Anakin kinda hurt her side from jumping up and everything so she took a pain pill in the car on the way back to the hotel which was ok.

We were both so energized that we knew we wouldn't sleep, even though we were running on no sleep anyways. So we got back to the hotel and my parents immediately went to bed so anakina nd I stayed up watching TV, bored out of our minds with loads of energy. We finally were told to shut off the TV, and we talked over text what we should do. We decided there was nothing, so we went to 'sleep'. We know eachother well enough to know when we're awake or asleep or awake. We were both awake for a long time. Just thinking our own thoughts I guess...I was thinking about the game, Naruto, and my comic.

So we got NO sleep again(my dad snores insanely, and we weren't tired anyways) and we got up at about...9? and started our drive home. We stopped in Sioux City shopped for a bit...I got a Naruto t-shirt, which is wicked cool, it's got seriously everyone on there...and Anakin got one of just Naruto and Sasuke battleing...and she also got this awesome book with all there Naruto pics in it....I'm going to attempt to use it to learn how to draw Manga humans. For the better of the comic. And then I can draw Naruto fanart! If I don't suck that is...

So we came home and she stayed at my house for a while not wanting to go home(we're in a good rp) but she finally left about 7 or 8, she really didn't want to go home, and once we got there she didn't want me to leave...

Then we watched the Euro Cup soccer final(we taped it) and Spain won!! I wanted Germany to win, but yet I knew that Spain would win, and I was right! For once....

This has to be one of the best weekends I've ever had. Oh and I'm still not tired, and it's 12:30. Don't have much to say....anymore that is.

Lynda: Look on DA, your character's done!!

Jenny; Hiiiiiiii, you back from Vaca yet??

Katherine: jerk, you only commented once! did you look at the other stuff I added? If you did and just didn't comment I'm ok with that, but as long as you saw it...

Sarah: er....hi!...nothing to tell you except...hi!, lol

Sorry for any spelling mistakes, and if you read all of this you either A: love me. or B: have seriously no life. Srsly.

Wow, it's been a while...I really need to update my vid awards post...I have a really awesome one from Amelia I never posted...

Anyway, as the title implies, this post is, yes, about my webcomic..graphic novel...thing...

Though I'm sure I have no other people reading this than the people who already know and read the comic, but I suppose I'll link you anyway. By any chance that you, the reader, doesn't know me or about my wolf webcomic, go check it out!! Ok it's no BBA(Black Blood Alliance, awesome wolf webcomic) but it's something...


http://spirithp.deviantart.com/gallery/#Renegades-Comic-Pages


Guess what guys? Third page has been up for a few days and fourth I just finished coloring! Now I just have to scan, do some stuff on the comp and text it and it'll be posted!! Fourth page you learn something quite interesting! *wink to Amelia*you'll like this!

Also there's a group on DA called creature comics and, it's just a listing of comics about different kinds of animals(obviously) but since my wolves have the ability to turn into humans I'm not sure I qualify....on the flip side they barely ever use their human sides...they will at some point but it'll probably be shown in silluettes....can't spell...and shadows, as I can't draw humans...well...

Oh, nother random piece of info, I bought shinny metallic Sharpies, and they're amazingly cool! It'd be great for a metal element wolf, to be shinny like metal...my only fear is how it's going to come out on the scanner...with it being shinny and all...I'll test it...

BTW, I've figured out how I'm doing dreams in the comics too! What they'll look like and so that you'll be able to identify them from the waking moments of the wolves... haven't quite figured out what I'm doing for flashbacks...maybe the same thing..no...to creepy...Any ideas?

I've been noticing my vidding's at a lag...I REALLY want to work on that...I've got the Mortal Kombat theme not even close to 1/32 of the way done(yeah, it's a REALLY flashy vid...)
Haven't started my Obidala contest entry....
And I really want to use my half finished Papercut vid for Smokeyfizz's contest.... I was amazed that they friended me for the contest...apparently I'm good enough for Smokey, which is amazing to me!!whoop!

Since no one seemed to care about the release of Can't Be Saved and it's still only got like three comments, I guess I'm just....disheartened... Ohh well I'll get over it.


Also I'm working on ripping my Naruto DVD's, most of which are JadeLawless's....It's a really slow process. Then the type of file I rip it into won't play in WMM so I have to convert and compact files together in Ulead to make it work, but the compacting really does make some space on my hard drive, which is nice...


OMGs I bought the movie Blood and Chocolate, it's gonna be awesome in my vids, I'm so excited!!! I can actually make a trailer for either my comic or my story!

Damn, I gotta get writing that....

If I didn't have to work so fricken much I'd have more things done...

Ohh, on Saturday my family and Anakin(yay!) are going to a soccer game in Kansas City, and we'll be gone till....Sunday afternoon ish...anyway Anakin's insanely excited! And I'm excited cause she's excited!

Well, the play was awesome!!! It's just about my favorite thing now. Well except Star Wars and Obidala OF COURSE. So here's the low down on the day before the play and the two performances.
Day before: I wake up. 'woah, why can't I breathe?' My head hurt, I was extremely tired. My throat killed, and I felt so weak I couldn't even hold a water bottle. It completely sucked. So I stayed home and slept 20 hours, only waking up to eat and watch the soccer game (Chicago won, yeeeah!) So, naturally, I was thinking 'I'm screwed, I won't even be able to talk'. I went to sleep(slept the whole night too) hoping I could survive school and make it to the play then 'act' happy and not sick feeling

Day of First Performance: I still felt really crappy, but I went to school and dazed through the day. I was NOT missing this play.It's my acting debut!lol I went to the school at 5:30 to put the finishing touches on everything and get makeup on and junk. I went down to the basement(littered with graffiti, it's cool) and suddenly I felt better. My throat didn't hurt and I could at least halfway talk. I helped fold programs and found Jake's bra. That 'Jake's bra' thing is probably throwing you off...yes, Jake is a guy, and no he's not gay or anything. We got one of our senior big football player guys to play a girl. FIRST they put on his makeup. He complained the whole way. They gave him blue eye shadow and everything. He cried when they put the eye liner on him, lol. Then we had to help him get the bra ON, which was interesting.(the bra was a 42 DD by the way, lol) THEN we stuffed it. With like 3 rolls of toilet paper. He was freaking out cause one was bigger than the other.(every one's laughing all the way through this, btw) Then we put on the old lady's dress. He looked so halarious. And the blonde wig...oh geez. I got my makeup on(yeah, only time I'll ever wear makeup) Then we waited around for the play to start. Our director has a 1 year old, he's so darn cute, he kept running to his daddy, we were all awwwwwwwwwwww ing. Then we had a little pep talk, and the play started. I went out and watched the first half of the play with anakin, cause we were in the second half, so we had time. Jake was hilarious if you wanted to know. At intermission we moved all the stuff we needed to onto the stage and anakin and I both started to FREAK OUT. We were both 'play virgins' and we were both so excited we were nervous. Well, the stage lights came on(my first line is before the curtain opens) and I yelled it(like I'm supposed to, plus our sound system sucks so you have to) The curtain opened and I looked out into the audience. Usually speaking publicly scares me, but I felt completely fine. My throat was actually working so I said the rest of my lines loud enough. After the 10 minute section anakin and I are in, we exited left and jumped up and down squeeing. That was just about the bestest thing ever!!!!! After wards some of my family came over and talked about boring stuff. Right after they left I went straight to bed, I was so tired, as my cold had come back twice as strong.

Next Day: Woke up still kinda crappy but better than yesterday. Lazed around till the play, then did it all over again. When we stuffed Jake's bra. This time Jacob(yes, we had two Jakes in the play) and felt Jake's boobs. It was hilarious yet disturbing. The play started and anakin and I went out to watch it again. See, tonight is random night. We get to add things into the play if we want to, to make it funnier. While girl Jake was asking King Jake if he could have money for his loss(of pies at a pie eating contest) King Jake said no, obviously. Girl Jake threw off his wig, screamed 'What!?' and drew a sword from the wall. King Jake got 'angry' and fought him with his scepter(which was a golf club). He won and THREW girl Jake out the window!(like 15 people fall, jump, or die through that window) One of my friends/fellow cast mates fell down on stage accidentally later on, it was hilarious. Anakin and my time came and we got everything ready as usual, we weren't nervous at all. Apparently speaking/reading in public makes me nervous, but not acting. WTF? ohh well. Anakin got to put a pink fluffy toilet seat on someones head(I thought that one up, and you have to see the play to get it). We were totally all happy and excited when everything was over and done with. The only sucky thing is now we have to wait till spring to do another play...*sniff*

The only thing I don't like about the play is the random stuff you have to do with no direction like shinny spray painting a chair randomly with no direction on how many coats, how thick or anything. And I wish the director would do a little more well...directing. He just kinda lets us do whatever. He'll help sometimes...ugh, I don't know I don't want him to be all controlling...I'm confused on what I want. Ohh well.

Well, let's summarize:
Casualties:
My health
Some of my time
My sanity

Close calls:
My Grandma's clipboard( it was almost painted gold. I saved it, and our director(and I quote) 'Did not mean to intentionally vandalize my Grandmother's clipboard.' He's really quirky.)
Almost fell off the edge of the stage

Benefits:
I can kinda speak in front of people
I know I love acting
I had something to do with my time
Learned how to draw better cats(don't ask, lol)
Found out preps really aren't as mean as I thought they were (at least at play practice)
I know I can actually kinda act!

Regrets:
Getting sick
Not going to Cast parties BECAUSE I was sick
Not doing this last year

There are about 10 seniors in this play. When they leave next year, who's going to take over the big parts? Us who will be Juniors(we don't have barely any current juniors in the play) next year. YAY bigger part for me!! I just hope and pray we don't do a sad play, cause if we do, I'm so out. I don't act sadness. I don't know if I could....

Well, this is just about the longest Journal Entry ever. Ohh, and the movie Hot Fuzz is the BEST EVER!! LOVE LOVE LOVE that movie!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well, I'm going to go I guess. bye now!waves* Y'all come back now, ya hear??

Haven't posted in forever. Sorry. I disappear like that from time to time, it's a perfectly natural behavior of mine. Well, you want to know what's going on with me, don't you. DON'T YOU!? lol, ok fine, I'll tell you.
Tomorrow's my mom's birthday and all we've done is given her a card the past few years so i decided to be special and bought a cake mix. My dad and I ACTUALLY made something in the kitchen without killing it! Well, as far as we know....
Anyways, I did basically everything to make it and frost it. Then, to be cheesy and five-year-oldish I took some twistable licorice(my mom loves licorice) and wrote 'happy birthday mom' with it. it looks really crappy, like a little kid did it, but it's the thought that counts right? She'll be home in a few hours.
The play is going well, I'm the TV Crew Manager(that's an actual person in the play not a backstage person, though it sounds like that). We're supposed to have our lines memorized by tomorrow. Yay!! I'm excited. And I might have to draw a panther for the set. I'm excited and scared cause I'm not the best drawer.
I got my video awards for October!! Just look under my video awards, I always update it instead of posting again. Well I guess I'm gonna go. See y'all later!

I know it makes no sense to have a 'week in review' post if i'm only posting from last wednesday to today. Ohh well. You all understand my randomness, don't you??

Wednesday: First day of school!*waves small flag of sarcastic joy* we had our class meetings which do nothing except explain the handbook to us for the 1,000th time. The teacher for our grade was one of those ancients(he was old when my MOM was in school) who's a real stickler about the rules. He states, holding the handbook in front of him:"This...is...the..LAW. You MUST follow....the...LAW." Running through my head: 'Wait, WHAT? the LAW? Last year they were rules, when did the State pass them as laws!? And what are, we juvenile delinquents??'
Teacher: "You will not socialize in the halls, you will go to the student center before class and in between class there will be no allygagging to go talk to Suzy Q over here!"
Friend whispers: "Bonna, who's Suzy Q? She new or something?"
Me: "I don't know, but I don't like her and I most certainly won't socialize in the hall with her!"
Note: there is no girl in our school named Suzy. And if there was her last name wouldn't start with a Q.

Thursday: Nothing really, just learning 'the Flamingo' and 'The horse' as we have so respectively named them in band. They came from the Ministry of Funny Walks, I swear.

Friday: We jumped in and got both feet wet in classes. Apparently our splashes brought up books which made us carry them home and use them for educational purposes.

Saturday and Sunday: Took care of Anakin's beast of a dog Ladybug. No not YOU Lynda! :) And had a movie night with friends. Epic Movie is awesome. Ohh and I started another vid on a whim.

Monday(that's today!): Worked on our field show in Band, which was a disaster( freshmen's first day out on the field) and I STILL haven't found out if I'm fat from that BMI thingy in PE! gods, all this waiting is going to kill me!*rolls eyes* We also got out early for heat(no air in Elementary and Middle schools) which was awesome.

Yep, there's my boring almost week! ohh, almost forgot

Tommorrow: Safety test in Biology! Questions will look something like this:
If you break something you:
A) hide it under your table
B) notify instructor
C) run into other science room and yell at the other class for breaking it
D) Run down the hallway screaming bloody murder

Good job, the correct answer is D)!!